On the evening of Sept. 10, I went to bed expecting to take a 5:30 a.m. Amtrak train to New York for a 9 a.m. event at the Millenium Hotel in the World Trade Center -- the hotel that had been heavily damaged, then rebuilt, after terrorists tried to blow up the twin towers in 1993.
Never have I been so glad to have overslept. By the time I awoke at 6 a.m., the train had gone, and I decided to remain at my home office in Philadelphia. Three hours later, the buildings where I should have been were in flames. It was impossible for me to feel lucky, knowing as I watched the surreal disaster on TV that dozens of my acquaintances on the higher floors of both buildings might die.
THE HUMAN TOUCH
Then I watched the buildings collapse, and that's when I started to cry. I had arrived at the scene of the 1993 bombing of the Trade Center right after it happened. My most striking memory of that event was the thousands of people milling aimlessly at the base of the towers as broken glass rained down from above, while hundreds of firefighters and police rushed to help. This time, those people would have been swallowed up in the debris of an entire skyscraper. The majority of them are now dead.
I awoke my wife, a reporter for the Philadelphia Daily News, because I knew she would have to cover the local angle of the story. And then our daughter, who turned one last week. Suddenly, it seemed important to feel her skin and look into her eyes -- an experience that hundreds of Trade Center victims may have longed for as they contemplated their fate.
This wasn't my closest brush with terrorism. While in Israel at the age of 15, I witnessed the controlled detonation of a bomb that had been left by terrorists in a flower shop in Rehovot. When I was 16, I flew an Air India jet from New York to London -- a week later, the plane and the crew I had flown with were blown up by Sikh terrorists. When I was 19, I flew from London to New York on Pan Am flight 007 -- a few weeks later, the same flight was blown up over Scotland.
A REASON TO LIVE
I don't feel lucky, because that would imply a world where a person's fate depends upon things like happenstance and coincidence. As odd as it sounds, I have no doubt that on the morning of Sept. 11 it was G-d that made me hit my snooze button rather than simply get up. Maybe G-d has a plan for me, or maybe a plan for my daughter that requires the presence of a father. It isn't for me to question what the plan is.
I do feel angry, however -- angry that I and my family have to live in a world where despicable people commit unspeakable acts. Though I was fortunate not to be in the building, those terrorists were trying to kill me. I have no desire for revenge that might hurt a single innocent person. But I do feel an insatiable desire for justice. The only satisfactory conclusion now is to bring the perpetrators of this crime to account.
Beyond that, I hope that when my daughter grows up, she'll inhabit a different world. Such hope is perhaps the only salve that can ease my pain -- and the world's.
Sam Jaffe covers investing for BusinessWeek Online, where this article originally appeared.
|In reply to comment number three: of course G-d had a plan for each and every person who was killed in that horrible attack-- quite simply put, he said it was time for each of them to die. To even think less would be to say, heaven forbid, that G-d is not watching. We know and firmly beleive that not only did G-d create the world but that he also is actively supervising and controlling all of its day-to-day affairs, to the extent that should G-d remove his consciousness from thinking about our universe it would cease to exist. G-d's plans are unfathomable. We pray for the final redemption and peace for all humanity. |
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|Sam, your story is moving but it was not your time. The Millenium Hotel is a new hotel that never existed at the time of the Trade Center Bombing. It is across the street from the Trade Center, not in it. The Millenium Hotel still stands today. You confuse it with the former Vista hotel which was damaged in the bomb blast and was rebuilt as the Marriott hotel. Those were in the center. I am thankful you are well. May we all miss such tragedies by accident or on purpose. |
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|I can not believe that G-d hadn't a plan as well for each one of the many fathers, mothers, daughters and sons killed, but I was moved by your trust and humility after what must have been a terrifying realization of your own near-erasure by that horrible chaos. May the New Year bring us peace, but may we never allow ourselves to believe we could make sense of the senseless. |
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|I was intrigued by the message of Sam Jaffe, he covers investing for BusinessWeek Online. Faith, Hope, and Love is all I might add. . . |
- J. P. -0/9-/2001
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|Hashem is big thats all i can say at this moment. HASHEM IS GREAT!!!! |
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