Parshas Shemini
What I Was Chosen To Do
By Rabbi Label Lam
Moshe said to Aaron, “Come near to the Alter and perform the service of
your sin-offering and your burnt-offering and provide atonement for
yourself and for the people; then perform the offering of the people’s
offering and provide atonement for them, as HASHEM commanded.”
(Vayikra 9:7)
Come near to the Alter: For Aaron was embarrassed and afraid to approach.
Moshe said to him, “Why are you embarrassed? This is what you were
selected for!” (Rashi)
What was Aaron suddenly embarrassed about? He was not a hidden person. He
participated in many a public event. He was active during the whole 10
plagues operation in Egypt. He was a major public figure. Now suddenly
he’s stricken with shyness. Why?
What does Moshe mean when he says, “This is what you were selected
for!”? What is the “this”?
The Midrash indicates that Moshe needed to invite Aaron to come close to
the Alter and perform his duties because of Aaron’s deep feeling of
inadequacy, not psychologically. It is rather born from a true sense of
disproportion. After all, who is man, a flesh and blood creature to
approach G-d Almighty? Moshe encouraged his brother as the Midrash feeds
these words, “Make your heart proud in the arena of serving G-d.” Don’t be
so self-effacing here and now. “It was for this reason you were selected
to be the High Priest.” 1) This could mean that Aaron was selected because
of his excessive humility or 2) it could mean that he should take a
limited license to curb that quieting instinct when it comes to doing the
task for which he was especially selected.
This conversation may be equally applied to those rare occasions when some
service must be performed in a public setting. I remember having to Daven
one morning at an Air Port in San Diego. The flight was so early that
there was no time to put on Tallis and Tefillin beforehand. Therefore I
discretely did my thing right there by the gate. Between the “Shema”
and “Shemona Esreh” when according to Jewish Law one is not allowed to
speak out, a “final boarding call” was made. I was the only one left. I
had no choice. So, regally robed in Tallis and Tefillin, I boarded. My
seat was the last in the back row of packed plane. Heads turned and coffee
cups dropped as I strode proudly to my seat. There I finished my prayers.
I remember having to briefly overcome that sense of embarrassment but in
the end I felt proud. After all, this is what I was selected for!
Not long afterwards I had to pray early in the morning in a D.C. Airport.
I was able to finish, almost. It was the first day of Elul when we begin
to blow the Shofar. So while walking-down that tube-way that leads to the
plane I noticed there were a few people ahead and a few behind me. I
worked up the courage to let loose a few raspy blasts which stunned and
alarmed everyone within range. They stared with astonishment until I
raised my fist and declared with certainty, “This means we’re going to
have a great flight!” Smiling we strode together confidently onto the
plane.
It sure felt good to overcome the initial embarrassment and hyper-concern
for public opinion and to feel proud enough to do just what I was chosen
to do.
DvarTorah, Copyright © 2007 by Rabbi Label Lam and Torah.org.
