Parshas Ki Sisa
From Rags to Riches
Parshas Ki Sisa describes the tragic downfall of the Jewish people at the
very pinnacle of their spiritual achievement.
The people encamped as one around Har Sinai in their zeal to receive the
Torah. Hashem's voice thundered off the mountain tops, proclaiming the
Aseres Hadibros, the Ten Commandments, and designating the Jews as His
chosen people for accepting His eternal covenant.
From the lofty heights of those wonderful intoxicating days, the Jewish
people spiraled downwards. Moshe had ascended to Heaven to bring down the
Luchos, the stone Tablets, and in his absence, the nation had strayed far.
The Torah describes how, only forty days later, the people embraced the
worship of the Golden Calf and were dancing around it in wild abandon.
Hashem revealed to Moshe in Heaven exactly what was taking place down below,
and instructed him to go down and take control of the tragic scene. Moshe
grabbed the Tablets and made his way down the mountain. He was greeted by
Yehoshua and by the crescendo of noise emanating from the camp.
As he approached the camp and saw the people dancing to musical instruments
around the golden calf, Moshe took the miraculous Tablets of stone and
smashed them at the foot of the mountain.
The commentaries ask why Moshe waited until he descended the mountain to
shatter the Luchos. Did he not believe Hashem when He told him the Jews were
worshiping a golden calf?
The Tablets transcended the laws of nature; the letters penetrated the stone
through and through, yet one could read the holy text on them from either
side. The Tablets were a reflection of the divine connection that the Jewish
people had with their creator-but which, by worshiping the golden calf, they
had lost. The Jewish people, after this serious breach of faith, were no
longer worthy of being the recipients of the Luchos. So why did Moshe wait?
Why didn't he leave them in Heaven instead of smashing them at the foot of
the mountain?
The commentaries explain that although Moshe knew beyond any doubt that the
Jewish people had worshiped the golden calf. Yet he rationalized that it was
surely just a temporary lapse, not done willfully or with enthusiasm.
Perhaps they had succumbed to their base urges momentarily and could still
be restored to their previous lofty stature.
But when he saw the people brazenly dancing around the calf, with musical
accompaniment and great gusto and excitement, he realized the truth: they
could never again be worthy of those heavenly Tablets.
It is one thing to abandon G-d out of fleeting temptation while all the
while experiencing pangs of guilt. It is another to abandon Him without
compunction, with relish and merriment. After such debasement, the
disconnect is complete and absolute.
When not acting in consonance with the inner vibrations of our conscience,
we often feel stirrings of guilt and remorse. We may wonder why we need to
be plagued with misgivings and confusion about our behavior. Why can't we
feel whole and happy with what we are doing?
In truth, Jewish guilt is a gift from Hashem. It doesn't allow us to
re-define our priorities and our character, based on our "fall from grace."
That little voice inside of us that is telling us we shouldn't be here, we
shouldn't be doing this, this is not me-is making sure that our substandard
actions do not define our essence.It is ensuring that we regain our grip and
give genuine expression to our innermost aspirations.
Wishing you an inspiring Shabbos.
Rabbi Naftali Reich
Text Copyright © 2013 by Rabbi Naftali Reich and Torah.org.
Rabbi Reich is on the faculty of the Ohr Somayach Tanenbaum Education Center.
