Parshas Chukas
Fine Lines
"And G-d said to Moshe and Aharon, 'because you did not believe in me,
to
sanctify me in the eyes of the Children of Israel, for this reason you
shall not bring this congregation to the Land which I have given to
them... Aharon will be gathered unto his people, because you defied My
word at Mei Merivah.'" [20:12, 24]
These words should strike us as not merely puzzling, but bizarre. How
could G-d say to Moshe, who ascended Har Sinai and spoke "face to face"
(as it were) with Him, did not _believe_ in Him? Aharon, who directed the
Services in the Tabernacle, and caused the Divine Presence to descend upon
the camp -- he also didn't believe in G-d?
If someone were to read only this passage, he might think that HaShem was
accusing Moshe and Aharon of atheism or idolatry. Yet, obviously, this is
not so. In fact, the error of Moshe and Aharon was so subtle that we
perhaps cannot understand it -- the Torah never specifies precisely what
they did wrong, and several commentators present various different
possibilities.
Our Sages say that HaShem "is as precise as a hair's breadth" with those
who are close to Him. Moshe and Aharon came so close to G-d that for them
a "sin" was something so small as to be beyond our perception, no more
comprehensible to our minds than microbes are visible to our eyes.
On Rosh HaShanah, there is a tradition to go to a body of water and "cast
off" one's sins, as it were, and ask that they be covered over like water
covers and hides the fish who swim within it. Many Chassidim have a custom
to take bread crumbs along and throw them in, to give physical expression
to this idea.
It is said that after a particular Chassidic Rebbe threw crumbs into the
water in accordance with this custom, one of his Chassidim bounded into
the lake and began to retrieve them. When questioned, the Chassid
explained: "what the Rebbe considers his 'sins' are Mitzvos where I'm
concerned!"
For years, I couldn't understand this story or its intended lesson. A
transgression is a transgression! But then, I heard that the Chofetz
Chaim, Rabbi Yisrael Mayer HaKohein Kagan (perhaps the greatest known
Torah scholar of the last century) once repented on Yom Kippur for having
wasted eight minutes from Torah study during the previous year.
Can we imagine wasting merely eight minutes in an entire year? I would be
extremely happy to say that I had managed to waste no more than eight
minutes on a given afternoon! Maybe, maybe I've spent a few hours without
wasting eight minutes once in my life. Maybe.
It's impossible to imagine being able to account for every moment of every
day, save eight minutes (I would almost be relieved to be told that I had
heard this story incorrectly). And this is what the Chassid was saying:
for us, it would be a great Mitzvah! The sins of great people occur at
such a level of precision, that _reaching_ that level, to be worthy of
being judged at that level, would be a phenomenal achievement.
The Torah itself, and the books of the Prophets as well, are replete with
similar stories of "grave sins" committed by our forebears -- even as we
are told that these same individuals were extremely holy and pious, so
close to G-d as to receive Divine Prophecy. Just like Moshe and Aharon at
Mei Merivah, these stories are obviously not fictitious, but neither can
they be read "at face value" without comprehension -- any more than we can
refer to a literal hand, arm, or face of G-d.
Precisely because the Bible is dealing with individuals on an exalted
spiritual level, if it were to tell us merely what they did, we would be
unable to perceive anything wrong. For those people, their behavior was no
less a transgression than if a more common individual had committed a
major sin such as murder, adultery or idolatry -- and thus the Prophets
use severe language, similar to HaShem's own words that Moshe and Aharon
"did not believe" in Him. Just like the anthropomorphic references to
HaShem Himself, these passages use language which we can understand, so
that we can learn from them, but are not intended to be taken literally
at all.
Every human being is just that -- human -- and no one is perfect. Even as
we are humbled by recognition of the heights reached by prophets and great
scholars, we should never lose hope, or imagine that those who came close
to G-d were truly angels, without inner struggles or difficulties. This is
the lesson the Torah brings home to us when attributing unimaginable
'sins' to our forebears. And yet it is also incumbent upon us to realize
that we could be, ourselves, so close to HaShem that our 'sins' would be
something we could not even recognize today.
Good Shabbos,
Rabbi Yaakov Menken
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The author is the Director of Project Genesis - Torah.org.
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