As the Yom Ha-din (Day of Judgement) approaches, our heart-strings are
pulled tight as we contemplate the fact that on Rosh Hashana we will be
judged on our conduct over the past year. This past month, Elul, we
hope we have succeeded in reviewing and reassessing our priorities; the
way we spend our hours and days. Much like the grant-applicant who
does his best to justify his request for funding, we try to approach the
Day of Judgement with a perspective that will assure Hashem granting us
a year of health and prosperity, with all their implications.
In fact, the Torah does not single out Rosh Hashana as a day of
judgement. Its source in found in the Talmud (Rosh Hashana 16a), "There
are four times during the year that the world is judged... On Rosh
Hashana all the inhabitants of the earth pass before Him like sheep
[passing through a gate]." The Gemara (ibid.), however, quotes the
opinion of Rabbi Yose that man is in fact judged every day, as it says
(Iyov 7:18), "You inspect him every morning." Rabbi Nasan says he is judged
every moment, as it says (ibid.), "... and observe him every moment!"
Many commentators appear to understand that these opinions are not
irreconcilable, yet how are we to appreciate the uniqueness of Rosh
Hashana if we are judged every day and every moment of our lives?
The holy Ba'al Shem Tov was once walking in the street when he met up
with Chaikel, the water carrier. "Chaikel, Shalom Aleichem, how are you?"
the Ba'al Shem Tov inquired.
"Rebbe," he said, "things are not good. All my life I have earned an honest
living carrying water, but now, as I get older, my body just isn't as
strong as it once was. I come home in the evening exhausted. And besides, a
person hopes to be able to retire when he gets older, yet here I am
working just as hard, or harder, than I ever have. And how much do you
think I bring home? Barely enough to make ends meet! Things just aren't
as I might have liked them to be."
The Ba'al Shem Tov gave Chaikel his blessings that things should improve
for him, and they parted ways.
A few weeks later, the two met once again in the street. "So Chaikel,"
the Ba'al Shem Tov inquired, "how have things been going lately?"
"Rebbe, Baruch Hashem, I can't complain. After all, all my life I've
managed to live comfortably, if not richly, by the work of my hands.
We've never needed to borrow money from anyone, and we've never
gone hungry. Even as I age, Hashem still gives me the strength to
continue my work, which is exceptional considering my age and the
weight of the cans I carry. Thank G-d, I have much to be grateful for.
May Hashem only give me the strength to live out my remaining years
in such health and good fortune."
The Ba'al Shem Tov turned to his disciples, who had accompanied him on
each of his encounters with Chaikel. "Reb Chaikel just helped us to
understand the meaning of the Gemara, which quotes one opinion that
man is judged on Rosh Hashana, yet later cites opinions that we are
judged every day and every moment. In fact, on Rosh Hashana we are
assigned our allotted portions - the blessings of sustenance we will
receive over the coming year. But during the rest of the year, there is
a constant judgement as to how we will accept and perceive those
blessings. One who merits will find himself constantly aware of Hashem's
blessings in his life, and will rejoice in the opportunity to spend another
day on earth enjoying Hashem's grace and kindness. At times, though,
our hourly judgement goes awry. When we are in such a state, even the
sweetest blessings and the greatest wealth fail to satisfy. On Rosh
Hashana we ask Hashem that we should be blessed. And the rest of the
year, we should pray that He give us the ability to feel it."
Parshas Nitzavim is always read the week before Rosh Hashana. This is
most appropriate, because it contains the Parshas Ha-teshuva, a section
of the Torah dedicated to repentance.
It will be that when all these things come upon you, the blessing and the
curse... and you will return to Hashem, your G-d, and listen to His
voice... Then Hashem will bring back your remnants, and have mercy on
you. Hashem will remove the barriers from your hearts... and you shall
return and listen to the voice of Hashem, and perform all His
Having said that as a result of the chastisement, Israel will repent (verse
2), why does the Torah repeat the statement in verse 8?
There is an intersting "Catch-22" that pertains to teshuva. Teshuva is
contingent upon the recognition that we have done wrong. But sin dulls
our sensitivity to perceive that. So the more we sin, the more difficult
it becomes for us to see it. How is one who has veered from the
straight path to initiate the teshuva process? (Living Each Week)
Perhaps this is the function of Rosh Hashana. On the anniversary of the
World's creation, Hashem declares a day of judgement and reassessment.
The gates of teshuva and self-awareness are opened wide, and we are
given the opportunity to view ourselves with the penetrating light of
truth that descends to the very depths of our neshamos (souls). Once the
gates of self-perception have been opened, the opportunity now exists
to perpetuate that light with the daily/hourly/momentary judgement that
is supposed to be a constant force in our lives.
As the Days of Awe approach, we ask Hashem that He grant us plentiful
blessings in the coming year, with the wisdom to perceive and appreciate
those blessings, and the gift of self-awareness, that we may use our
blessings to live a life of teshuva and ma'asim tovim.
Have a good Shabbos.
****** This week's publication has been sponsored by Mr. Pinchas
Goldstein, in loving memory of his father, R' Yisrael David ben R'
Yaakov. And by Mr. and Mrs. Motti Meirovits, in honour of the bar
mitzvah of their son, Yirmiyahu. ******