Chapter3, Mishna 10b

Does G-d Exist? Part II

By Rabbi Dovid Rosenfeld

"Rabbi Dostai ben (son of) Yannai said in the name of Rabbi Meir (mai-eer), anyone who forgets anything from his Torah study, Scripture considers it as if he bears the guilt for his own soul, as the verse says, 'Only take heed and guard yourself well, lest you forget the things which your eyes saw' (Deuteronomy 4:9). One might think this applies even if his studies were too difficult for him? The verse therefore continues, 'and lest they be removed from your heart all the days of your life.' Thus, one does not bear the guilt for his soul unless he sits and removes them from his heart."

Last week we discussed the significance of the verse in Deuteronomy, as quoted by our mishna. We were warned not to forget the experience of the Revelation at Sinai, in which G-d appeared before the nation and granted them the Torah. As we explained, the true significance of this episode was not in the theatrics or the fiery display of G-d's might. It was in the simple fact that G-d revealed Himself to an entire nation. Henceforth, no future generation would be able to cast serious doubt on G-d's existence. He had revealed His Presence -- literally, and to millions of individuals, and their descendants ever after would know the story of G-d and His nation.

As we pointed out further, this stands in stark contrast to all the world's other religions. No other religion claims -- or really can claim -- that G- d did anything more than reveal Himself to a few prophets, or that a wonderworker performed a miracle before a very few witnesses. Our G-d, however, "proved Himself" in front of the entire nation. He could not leave belief in Him to anything more precarious. Religion cannot all hinge on our trusting a single prophet, no matter how impressive his claims (and certainly not one who was not accepted by his contemporaries). Frankly, we would expect an all-powerful G-d to do a better job than that if He really wanted us to believe in Him.

All of this begs a question -- a fundamental one which I'm sure many of my readers are already asking. True, at one point in our history G-d was very "open" with us. He revealed Himself and performed vivid and majestic miracles before our eyes. And the memory of it has never entirely left us; our holidays commemorate it in a great number of ways. But why is this left to our collective national memory alone? It gave our religion a fantastic jump-start, but that was literally millennia ago. What about today? If G-d expended so much effort courting the belief of our ancestors, why does He leave us (as well as all of mankind) in such darkness today? Sure, it's very hard to believe the story of the Exodus was concocted out of thin air, but thousands of years are thousands of years. Where are we left today?

Likewise, here is a common question -- I'm sure many of us have asked ourselves (whether consciously or not): "Why can't G-d give me a sign? I'd *like* to believe in Him; I *think* He exists, but I don't *really* know. Why can't G-d remove my *own* doubts -- not just those of my ancestors? Why did they have it so much easier? Of course *they* would serve G-d! They *knew*! But I live in a different time and place, plagued with doubts and confusion. Why not a miracle for *me* -- just a small one would do (like my term paper magically falling from heaven) -- and then I'll believe in G-d too!" (For that matter, why doesn't G-d just do a repeat of Mount Sinai -- so we can all at least see the rerun? (Wouldn't the commercial ads bring in just as much as they do during the Super Bowl? (Well, maybe don't answer that one.)))

This is a good question to raise (if I say so myself), and it brings us to a related -- and equally critical -- fundamental. Our questioner above assumed that if he would witness a miracle, he would serve G-d wholeheartedly -- and that is exactly why his ancestors in the desert served G-d so well themselves. Now, just a second there! Anyone who has even the most rudimentary knowledge of the Bible knows that it was hardly so simple. A good number of our ancestors -- the very ones who saw G-d on Mt. Sinai -- were gleefully dancing around a golden calf forty days later (or at least quietly acquiescing to the grisly affair). Forty *days* later! We were complaining that after thousands of *years* an undeniable fact of history can come under question. But how in the world could people who literally saw G-d deny Him after such a short time? And to dance around a hunk of lifeless metal, of all things! Didn't at least *they* know who G-d really was? How did G-d's revealing Himself backfire so?

(Needless to say, any commentator who has ever taken pen (or quill, or word processor) to paper has interpreted this sin to be infinitely more subtle and lofty then some primitive totem-pole idolatry. But still, much needs to be explained. How could they slip so far so fast? It's almost as if they were in a hurry to run from something!)

The reason is that as necessary as G-d revealing Himself to mankind was, as important as it was to dispel our doubts about G-d's reality, it created a very difficult -- and potentially disastrous -- situation at the time. Let us for a moment go back to the basics: G-d created the world so that man would serve Him. We would have to overcome challenges and temptations and make ourselves more spiritual and G-dlike. (A gross simplification, but it will have to do for now...) In order that the world provide a fair arena for spiritual growth, G-d had to make evil tempting and attractive. Humankind would be equally drawn towards wickedness as towards goodness and spirituality. Thus, our choice of good over evil would be meaningful. When both are equally tempting -- we could easily go either way -- and we choose good, we have accomplished. Our actions reflect a conscious decision on our part to move closer to G-d. We were given free will, and we exercised it properly. Our good choice would thus be part of a process of our growth and development. It would be *us*.

Now, to form a world which allows such challenge and growth, G-d had to make Himself "hidden". If we would *see* G-d -- or if He would reveal Himself in a manner which would suddenly and drastically alter our perception of the world -- we would no longer have free will. We would be *forced* to serve G-d: the path of evil would no longer truly be feasible. We would know that an all-powerful G-d is watching over our every move and demanding our obedience. We would be forced. The awareness of G-d would be an oppressive and inescapable reality. And even further, our abstention from sin would no longer be meaningful. It would not stem from our heightened awareness of the virtue of good. It would not be the result of a growing and maturing process. It would stem from fear: from a terrorizing awareness that an awesome, infinite Being is watching our every move. We would be left with no room for challenge and personal growth. Our service of G-d would be slavish and obedient: it would certainly not be *us*. Or, perhaps, we would do what some in the Sinaitic generation did: Rebel against a G-d they knew existed. They knew about G-d quite well -- *too* well. He was a reality they could never escape or ignore. And so, they openly rebelled against a closeness they knew they could not handle.

(Many of you will note the resemblance to our discussion of two weeks ago: why great scientists are sometimes ardent atheists. *Seeing* G-d is a *very* dangerous thing. )

For this reason, G-d very rarely violates the laws of nature -- even though theoretically, these laws mean nothing to Him. G-d allows the world to appear to operate through chance, as if on its own momentum. This is because G-d will simply not reveal Himself for any generation or individual who wants a little inspiration (or who wants to get his term paper done). G-d's guiding and often intervening hand is evident only to the most perceptive among us. If G-d were to openly demonstrate His control -- for Him to strike with lightning any time a person sins -- His Presence would become overly obvious and man's free choice would be compromised. Rather, G-d reveals Himself -- by way of prophecy or miracles -- only to people for whom G-d's existence is such a reality already that seeing G-d would in no way alter their perception of the world.

Finally, R. Dostai in our Mishna extends the theme of Deuteronomy. It is not sufficient simply to remember that G-d appeared before us. We cannot remember that G-d exists and stop right there. The experience of Sinai was not only one of revelation; it was also the forging of a covenant between G-d and Israel. And that covenant was sealed with the Torah. To remember that we have an ethnic culture and heritage -- that we eat chicken soup with k'neidelach -- is not why G-d revealed Himself to us at Sinai. (I never really cared much for k'neidelach (much to my mother's horror). I hope that doesn't make me a heretic. :-) It was so that we would accept G- d's Torah -- and our unique mission to the world. Our mission ever since Sinai was to study: to understand G-d's wisdom and to serve as a light and beacon unto the nations of the world. Our reaction to Sinai must be to study, to understand, and to remember.

Thus, in the final analysis, G-d did appear to us once in our history. He knew it was necessary for Him to demonstrate the reality of His existence to man that one time. We as a nation -- and as messengers to the world -- had to *know* that G-d exists. But He could never again repeat that dangerous performance -- at least not until the world would again be ready at the time of the Messiah. We can never again have G-d reveal Himself so openly, not unless we first prepare ourselves for such an encounter. Nevertheless, the knowledge is there -- not in our faces, but in Israel's collective memory -- and to a degree that we can live with it. It is now up to us to grow into it.

Text Copyright © 2004 by Rabbi Dovid Rosenfeld and Torah.org.