Killing Ourselves
Chapter 5, Mishna 17
By Rabbi Dovid Rosenfeld
"There are four types among those who go to the study hall. [One who]
goes
but does not 'do' receives reward for the going. [One who] does but does
not go receives reward for the doing. [One who] goes and does is pious.
[One who] does not go and does not do is wicked."
This week's mishna contrasts people in regards to their study hall
attendance. Before we begin, R. Samson Raphael Hirsch points out that in
the time of the Mishna the Oral Tradition had not yet been committed to
writing. (The Mishna in its present form was formalized only at the end of
this period by Rabbi Judah the Prince (R. Yehuda HaNasi), c. 200 C.E.).
Thus, the Torah was typically studied publicly and orally, at first from
teacher to student and then discussed among the students. This in itself
increased the dynamic, engaging nature of Torah study, contributing to its
becoming the living wisdom it is today. Conversely, the possibility of any
sort of advanced level of study in private was severely limited. Thus, our
mishna views one who does not attend a place of study as one who has very
little serious involvement in Torah study -- beyond what he has been
taught already and the little he can deduce on his own.
Our mishna categorizes people in terms of going to study and "doing". The
term doing is not entirely clear. It would seem to refer to what the
person does after he arrives at the study hall. But if he does nothing, of
what value is the traveling? The commentator Rashi explains that one who
does not do is one who listens to the lectures of others but does not
actively study himself. He is rewarded for the "traveling" -- going and
listening to others, but not so much for the "doing" -- vigorously
endeavoring to understand himself.
This is a key distinction in the eyes of the Sages, so much so that one
who merely passively attends lectures is viewed as having done little more
good than traveling to a place of study. The travel was his primary
effort; sitting back and listening to someone else lecture is almost the
relaxing part. True Torah study is something much grander and more
intense. The Sages view achievement in Torah as coming through exertion
alone.
Leviticus 18 discusses certain laws of impurity relating to corpses. Verse
14 states: "This is the Torah [law]: If a man dies in a tent..." On this
the Talmud comments, "This is the Torah -- if a man dies:" Torah is only
acquired if a person kills himself over it (Berachos 63b). Torah knowledge
cannot be acquired passively. Although the initial knowledge will always
come from a scholar or sacred text, understanding the material is not
where the effort ends; it is where it begins. The student must then
analyze, review, and internalize -- often with the help of study partners
and colleagues. Only then will the Torah knowledge become his own.
There is a much higher goal required of us in Torah study than the
basically passive task of absorbing information. We learned above that
ideally one should study in order to "do" (Chapter 4, Mishna 6). This certainly sounds
like an active accomplishment -- not unlike the "doing" of our mishna.
What does it mean to study in order to do?
We explained there that studying to do does not mean in order to know how
to fulfill the commandments. Most of the texts we study discuss laws and
practices which have little or no relevance to our daily lives. Further,
that would have Torah study as a means alone, while in truth it is an
ends -- and an ends like no other. Ideally, we study not merely to know,
but to "do" -- to make a change in ourselves and become different people.
We study Torah to gain an understanding of G-d's wisdom, and ultimately to
understand and develop a relationship with G-d Himself. This requires an
enormous degree of exertion, devotion and submission before G-d's infinite
wisdom. We build that relationship when we master and internalize the
Torah -- when it enters our hearts and minds -- transforming our very
beings into Torah personalities.
Thus, our mishna tells us that one who merely attends Torah classes but
does little to internalize the wisdom is lacking in a major aspect of
Torah study. He has traveled to a worthy location, and he is certainly in
good company. Far better to relax with words of Torah than in front of a
TV screen. But his study has at best only begun. What does he do after the
lecture? Does he build on his new-found wisdom, deepening and expanding
his knowledge? Does he apply it to himself? Or does he move on to greener
pastures -- unwilling to put in the true intellectual effort required for
accomplishment in learning?
Over the years I have both observed and been involved with many Torah
study programs geared for the wider community, and they have invariably
floundered on this point. It is not so difficult to attract people to an
enticing Torah lecture -- in which a lively, engaging speaker selects some
fascinating / amusing / timely topic and entertains an audience for an
hour. People are more than willing to sacrifice the boob-tube for an
evening (depending, of course, on the prime-time showings that day -- not
to mention which athletic season it is) to attend a Torah lecture -- and
only some of them will doze. But when these programs invite people to sit
down and learn for themselves -- or even study with an advanced partner,
the casually interested quickly fall away and pitifully few remain.
This, however, is our ultimate task when it comes to Torah study. Torah
study cannot be viewed as a pastime -- something one does without serious
commitment and gut-wrenching effort. Sitting back and expecting to be
taught -- that everything should be figured out by someone else and spoon-
fed to you -- will hardly create a knowledgeable Jew, let alone a Torah
personality. This is for the all-too-simple reason that G-d gave us the
Torah not merely as a code of laws and ethics. It is a tool: for seeking
and discovering G-d and His truths, and in so doing discovering ourselves.
And it must be done by us alone. G-d will not come to us, nor can anyone
else truly bring Him to us. We, and only we, can take possession of the
Torah, making it -- and G-d -- a part of our lives.
Text Copyright © 2006 by Rabbi Dovid Rosenfeld and Torah.org.