The Duties of the Heart
Gate Five: "Dedicating Our Actions to God"
Chapter 5 (Part 12)
The fact of our mortality does different things to people. It inspires
some to disregard the mundane and to deepen their spirits, since it will
outlive their earthly life; and yet it persuades others to "seize the day"
and to pack-in as much as they can. The yetzer harah has its say in this
as well, so we'd have to be aware of its arguments. But as we'll find, it
addresses the issue from different perspectives, depending on
circumstances.
If you're managing to do well in life, the yetzer harah will suggest that
your success is thanks to all your "effort, ingenuity and wisdom", as Ibn
Pakudah puts it. And it will urge you to "keep on busying yourself with
earthly things" that way, rather than spiritual ones. For "then you can be
sure that (your success) will continue -- and even increase". It will tell
you to enjoy what you have and to live life to its fullest, "for very,
very soon you'll be called by name, and will have to respond to the
darkness of the grave", so take in as much now as you can (it will argue).
If you're *not* doing well, the yetzer harah will remind you of how
fortunate and successful less spiritual people often are. It will suggest
that the only reason you've failed was because you were too spiritual. And
it will try as hard as it could to convince you that the pursuit of
spiritual excellence is too "oppressive and obscure", and that you'd
undoubtedly be happier if "you'd only dismiss this piety and give up on
it!" Because, again, in the end both believer and nonbeliever will die (it
will point out).
Then it will take a different tack. When it notices you deciding to do
something to deepen yourself and to serve G-d, it will begin to blow
things all out of proportion in order to discourage you. If you set out to
fast, for example, it will say, "Watch out -- fasting weakens you and
makes you ill". If it sees you staying up late at night to study Torah or
pray, the yetzer harah will try to convince you that "sleep is even better
for you than food, for it keeps you healthy and strengthens you". And if
it sees you about to give charity, it will have you dwell on how much
money you're giving away and will suddenly evoke a morbid picture of the
sort of poverty you'd be opening *yourself* up to if you keep giving your
money away.
Yet it will do all it could to make a sin seem suddenly very attractive to
you, when you're about to lapse into it; it will prod you on in it and
have you forget the price to pay in terms of spiritual mediocrity.
How are we to respond to all that? Ibn Pakudah suggests that you "simply
rejoin with the fact that whatever harm has come to you in the past (by
doing good things) has always disappeared without a trace" -- as when your
weakness from fasting quickly dissapated after you ate again, and how
easily you made-up for lost sleep, and the like; yet "their rewards will
surely endure forever". And that on the other side, wrongful and self-
centered pleasures "quickly fade", while "the shame and disgrace" that
result from your wrongful choices will "remain forever".
Hence the point is that our mortality can't be denied. But while this-
worldly "rewards" for sins are a will-o'-the-wisp, the harm they do
reaches beyond life's boundaries; and while the "harm" that sometimes
comes from the good we do is short-lived, too; still-and-all the
impressions they leave in our souls are immortal.
This series is dedicated to the memory of Yitzchak Hehrsh ben Daniel z"l,
and Sara Rivka bas Yaakov Dovid, z"l.
Copyright © 2004 by Rabbi Yaakov Feldman and Torah.org
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