Perhaps it isn't said simply because it's so obvious, but we'll say it
anyway. The greatest problem we have with G-d is the fact that He's...
If it weren't for that little fact, the struggle for goodness would be so
much easier. It would all be clear. We'd do everything asked of us by Him in
order to grow in our spirits. After all, He'd be right there. And we'd go
out of our ways not to do anything to embarass ourselves in front of Him.
For as Rabbeinu Yonah points out, we're very cautious not to embarrass
ourselves in front of friends and co-workers. We squeeze ourselves into tight
clothing, for example, or act painfully polite and neat in company. Simply
because we'd be ashamed to be seen for what we really are.
Some people go out of their way to avoid embarassing themselves for other
reasons. They might be ashamed to be seen wearing certain designer clothing,
drinking certain wines, or driving certain cars. Simply because they try to
live by "higher standards". While others go out of their way to live up to
certain professional, artistic, or academic high standards. And the lot of
them would be ashamed to be caught off-the-mark.
Interestingly enough, though, higher standards are invisible, too. Those who
live by them seem to take them very much to heart, however, and to just
know when they're acting below standard. As if some huge, intimidating
Standard-Thing were right in front of them, shaking a finger at them when
they'd gone off.
Of course Standard-Things don't exist, yet standards are kept to all the
time. Why? Because individuals with standards have internalized them. Because
they mean so much to them, and touch a very deep point in their hearts.
Why is it then that we lapse into spiritual mediocrity from time to time, and
aren't ashamed for example to pray listlessly, or to give nothing to charity?
To phrase the question another way, what is it that has us overlook invisible
G-d, and not live up to His standards for us?
Rabbeinu Yonah offers that it's simply because don't take Him seriously. In
his own words, it's "because G-d is removed from our innermost being."
The righteous and those in search of spiritual excellence are sometimes
simply *mortified* in G-d's presence when they catch themselves living below
standard. That moves them to teshuva (to return to Him), and it should move
us to teshuva, too.
And in reference to what we said at the very beginning, perhaps this isn't
said either simply because it too is so obvious, but we'll say it too. The
greatest problem we have being righteous is the fact that spiritual
mediocrity is... well... too visible. And too alluring.
So Rabbeinu Yonah offers this practical advice in our quest. We'd do well to
sequester ourselves from time to time in order to reflect deeply upon G-d's
real (albeit invisible) presence in the world. And upon how deeply connected
we are to Him as He watches over us, reads our hearts, and knows our every
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