The Gates of Repentance
The Fourth Instance: WHEN YOU DELVE INTO TORAH
If you accept Torah as true and right; if you accept that it's the very name
of G-d spelled out full and bold; and if you accept that it was given us as a
gift outright, awash with love and chock-full of the very secrets of the
universe.. it's only natural that you'd take what's said there in awe and
wonder, and that you'd be loathe to go against it.
Such a person-- who is by definition in search of spiritual excellence--
would be moved to teshuva (to return to G-d) each time he or she delves into
a Torah text, much the way an opera aficionado would be moved to tears and
depth of emotion every time he or she would sit down to an opera (though
there's really no comparison).
To be sure, though, there are opera aficionados, and there are opera
tourists, if you will. People who'll sit through an opera in order to claim
to have done that, or in order to be dazzled for a time by the scenery and
costumes. They miss all the subtleties and nuances, and are neither moved nor
transformed by the experience.
There are likewise Torah tourists, so to speak, who will sit through a Torah
lecture, skim a couple of pages here or there in a Torah text, or pick away
at the history or science therein (which is simply far from the point). As
opposed to Torah aficionados, who live to sit quietly and drink in the pure
bliss and poignancies of Torah.
Rabbeinu Yonah's point is that a true Torah aficionado would be quickly moved
to teshuva when coming upon something said in the Torah that was somehow in
dissonance with his or her personality. He or she couldn't help but be
thunderstruck by the contrast, and would start to improve and draw close to
He then cites a statement by the sages that's quite daunting. "It would have
been better for the person who studies and does not fulfill to have had his
face turned over in his afterbirth than to have been born" (J.T., Berachot
That's to say that those of us who *do* delve into the holy Torah-- who might
in fact be aficionados-- who nonetheless don't take it quite to heart, and
don't apply it to our relation to G-d and to people in our lives, would have
been better off not having been born. Since we'd have betrayed our life's
goal, which is spiritual excellence. And we'd have blundered away our own
inner resources day after day.
At bottom, though, Rabbeinu Yonah’s point is that we're presented with an
opportunity for teshuva each and every time we study Torah in depth-- as long
as we take it to heart, and incorporate its values.
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