The Taste of Repentance
By: Rabbi Yehudah Prero
Yom Kippur, the holiest day in the Jewish year, begins at sunset on September
19, 1999 and ends September 20, 1999 at nightfall. Throughout the entire Yom
Kippur, we engage in prayers of repentance. Our fates for the coming year are
sealed on this day. We refrain from partaking of physical pleasures so that we
can stay focused on the task at hand. One action we refrain from on Yom Kippur
is eating.
Our Sages have written "All who eat on the ninth of Tishrei (the day before
Yom Kippur) it is considered as if they fasted on the ninth and tenth." Why is
eating the day before Yom Kippur a practice that carries with it such
significance? Furthermore, if the time before Yom Kippur is one that is to be
spent engaged in repentance, reciting prayers which evidence our contrition,
and preparing ourselves for the ultimate judgement day, why, then, are we to
eat? What role does eating play in the repentance process?
Rabbi Yehonasan Eibshitz explained that our eating on the day before Yom
Kippur is part and parcel of the repentance process. The Talmud (Yoma 86b)
tell us that a person who is confronted with an opportunity to commit the same
sin they have previously committed should be sure to distance themselves from
the opportunity and not sin. G-d instructed Adam, the first man, not to
partake of the fruit of a certain tree. However, Adam did not heed the word of
G-d, and he ate from the fruit of that tree. The first sin, and therefore the
root of all sin, stemmed from an action of eating. On the day before Yom
Kippur, we actively attempt to rectify the consequences of that sin. We take
the very action that was an action of sin and use it in the proper service of
G-d. We eat, and engage in activities related to eating, so we can show that
we have learned from past errors. We now engage in earthly activities not for
our personal pleasure, but in our service of G-d. This demonstration right
before Yom Kippur prepares us as we are about to reach the pinnacle of the
High Holidays, the Days of Judgement.
The commandment to eat right before Yom Kippur additionally sends us a lesson
in human nature. We elevate eating from an action required for the sustenance
of life to a commandment of G-d for which we receive reward. On the day before
Yom Kippur, we often find that it becomes difficult to eat, we have no
appetite, we have no time to have meal. Whereas on other days we have no
problem grabbing a bite to eat, on the day before Yom Kippur, eating becomes a
chore. Why is there a change? The Talmud alludes to this situation, and tells
us that with any simple task that involves minimal effort, when it becomes a
Mitzvah, the Evil Inclination takes hold of us and convinces us that the task
is actually a major chore. The requirement to eat before Yom Kippur is no
different. Right before Yom Kippur, we have an easy opportunity to prove how
we can overcome the urging of our Evil Inclination.
The Chofetz Chayim, Rabbi Yisroel Meir Kagan, used to pose the following
question: If a person is presented simultaneously with opportunities to
perform two different Mitzvos, one easy to fulfill and ne difficult to
fulfill, and he can only perform one, which one should he chose? The Chofetz
Chayim offered this parable: A man was in the market to purchase a valuable
gem. However, he knew little about what to look for in a gem, and had no idea
how to determine if the prices merchants were offering him were in line with
the true value of the stones. When discussing this quandary with a friend, he
was given a piece of advice. He went out, sought an expert in gem appraisals,
and engaged this professional to assist him in his hunt for a precious gem.
When we want to know the "worth" of the Mitzvah, we can turn to one
certifiable expert: the Evil Inclination. The Evil Inclination "deals" with
Mitzvos constantly, knows the value of each one, and attempts to convince
people to refrain from performing these good deeds accordingly. Therefore, if
we are confronted with two Mitzvos, one more difficult than the other, we
already have our answer about which one is "worth" more. The Evil Inclination
exerts more effort to dissuade us from performing the more valuable Mitzvos.
The one we find more difficult must be the one that is worth more, and
therefore must be the one we should endeavor to perform.
Yom Kippur is almost upon us. In these few hours before we embark on the most
important journey of the year, or perhaps our lives, we must consider how we
conduct our lives. We are able to take the mundane and make it into the holy.
We can overcome the challenges the Evil Inclination sets before us. Keeping
proper perspective on what we are doing and how and why we are doing it is the
key to a good year. With each morsel we taste on the day before Yom Kippur, we
are reminded of these important lessons. This is more than food for thought;
this is food for life!
May we all merit to be sealed for a year full of all of the blessings G-d can
bestow upon us.
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